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October 13, 2005
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My voice is hoarse, my neck aches, my back pains, and my eyes are heavy. I honestly am not sure if I can make it through tomorrow. I just feel like at any moment I'm just going to either faint or snap—or both at the same time.
Still, I carry on as I always have.
Just one more day.
I've felt the wetness in my eyes grow more and more every day this week. The weight just gets heavier and heavier and I don't think anyone can see that they're breaking me.
"It's all too much."
"Too much pressure."
Et cetera.
I've never had to close my eyes and bite my tongue this much and this hard. I am definitely not liking it.
Even just now, the phone rang yet again and I had to take a few moments to breathe before answering. I don't believe I should have to do that on the daily basis that I have.
My vacation has gone through a few transformations in my head, but I've decided on the following:
- At least two days in Santa Barbara. The hotels there are retardedly expensive, so it's not worth staying the night. Still, two days there will hopefully do the trick.
- More wandering throught the greater Los Angeles area—perhaps Venice, perhaps Long Beach. I don't know, I'm not a doctor.
Just one more day.
I'm only one person. Really, I am.
It's taken everything I have, everything I am, to not up-and-quit these last two weeks. Constant reminders to myself about my vacation just aren't doing the trick.
The edges are fraying.
Please, just let me be.
Tuesday at Kiss Or Kill was somewhat difficult. It's hard putting yourself in a place where everyone is ready to just rock-out and you're ready to take a nap and punch a few people in the face. Still, I really wanted to see the debut of Alcoholic Poisoning In Outer Space. More tongue biting, but well worth it. The Camel guy gave me two free packs, Brandon and Josh were kind enough to give me a couple beers, and APIOS fucking killed.
Good times.
Tonight carries a similar theme. Ryan & Ron, aka Modest Proposal, will be performing at the Knitting Factory's Alterknit Lounge. The same aches and pains, if not more, but I carry on.
I'm currently preparing myself for some tongue biting. I'm also preparing my blanket reply when asked if I'm okay, etc: "Oh, I'm just a little tired. I'm okay."
Tonight promises to be a bit different, however, seeing as how this is an early night and one of comedy.
I haven't been laughing as much these last two weeks. Most of it has been polite laughter. I don't like that.
Not to put any pressure on you, Ryan & Ron, but you bitches better make me laugh.
I keed, I keed.
Posted by David at October 13, 2005 05:05 PM
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